There are so many things in life that can challenge us.
The past, baggage, damage whether to you or done by you.
There is also the anxiety of the future.
Of what's to come and not knowing.
I find myself thinking a LOT about the future.
About what lies before me.
Being Sylvie's mom.
Her source of necessity and her first encounters of so many things.
But this quote.
It gives me peace.
It reminds me that no matter what baggage I carry
or what scars I deal with on a daily basis,
or what I'm afraid of about the future,
they are tiny matters compared to what lies WITHIN me.
Whatever I face, I have what it takes to do just that.
Face it and deal with it.
I've learned so many things from being a stepmom but one of the most important things that I continue to learn and struggle with is to find humor in crisis.
To find some kind of comic relief in the midst of chaos.
Sure, it's easy to get angry or overwhelmed.
But it's also dangerous.
I've been down that road.
I've been stuck in that city.
Turmoil and depression is not something that I want running through my veins.
I don't want to be that kind of person.
The one who people steer away from.
The one where people walk on eggshells around.
I've been there, done that.
I want joy and love coursing through these veins.
So much that it pours out on everyone that comes into contact with me.
I want her first encounters not to be perfect but to be beautiful.
I want her to be able to smile for no reason.
To love being with her mom and dad.
To find that what lies within her has so much more magnitude than anything she would have to deal with.
What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
Thanks Ralph, you always seem to know what to say. :)
By the way, this is day 4 :)