On June 3rd, 2013 at 4:28am my world changed forever.
I became a mom.
And it's true.
All of those cliches.
It's the best thing in the world.
My heart just bleeds for her.
The love I feel for her is like no other.
When I hold her I'm not just holding my daughter.
I'm holding proof that miracles do happen.
I'm holding those moments where I thought it would never happen.
I'm holding those months and months of doubt, frustration and hopelessness.
I'm holding every single tear that I cried.
Every moment where I felt like giving up on everything.
I'm holding the miracle that smashed and crushed every doubt.
every moment of hopelessness.
It's absolutely surreal to look into her eyes and see the beauty of God's hands.
To see everything I've ever wanted in her eyes.
To see so much love looking back at me.
I cry just thinking about it.
And when I held her for the first time, all of those doubts and struggles vanished like vapor.
This little bundle needs me.
And I need her.
I sometimes think about all of the things I've done wrong in my life.
All the mistakes I made.
If there ever was something I know without a shadow of a doubt I did right in my life, it's her.
There's no doubt about it, Jay and I have gone through some crazy stuff.
Times where we didn't ever think we would see the silver lining.
And here she is.
And she's perfect.
P.S. I'm working on the birth story. so stay tuned :)